If you’ve never had the pleasure of reading Dorothy Parker’s brand of witty cynicism, close this page immediately and RUN to find some of her writing. She was the sharpest, most intelligent woman of her time, and I often look to her writing for strength in my own life.
If a man is confused, needs time away from you, and in this time frame is sleeping with other women, what would you do? What would you do if the two of you keep finding your way back to each other, only to be met with more of his confusion (or at times what he feels is certainty) about what he wants? Would you stick it out and wait? Or would you move on with your life? How do you handle this situation when you are still in love with someone, but they are unsure about what they want?
While I seem to constantly be in this situation with “P”, I’ve actually never experienced something like this before. With my husband, I struggled with leaving and walking away, but this was due in large part to his issues with drug addiction. There was never any issue with the two of us loving each other, wanting to be together, and really trying to make things work. I never know what the right move is when it comes to “P”. I love him, but each time I get close to him again, I end up a pathetic, blabbering mess of a woman. Someone I really have never been, and am certainly not proud to be at this point in my life. For the last week I’ve just been beyond angry with him for swooping back into my life and not being sure about what he wants. It hurts, and after all of this time it just isn’t fair for him to keep doing this to me. It feels as though he’s trying out all of his other options before making a decision about whether or not I’m what he wants to settle for. Actually, it feels this way because this is exactly what he’s doing.
I love him, but I’m curious as to what some of you would do if you were in my shoes? Would you cut your losses? Or would you stick it out and see what happens?